White

No alarm bells rang when things went wrong today

I closed my eyes and thoughtof the things I have not lost
While giving so much away.

I thought,

My roses and camellias

can go another year

without pruning.

Forgiveness comes so much easier now .

Learning to do things differently,  

Without drama, no neuroses, no subscriptions, no limits.
Unconditional.

Truthfully, however
I will struggle at the thought
of losing your friendship.
It will hurt not to see you smile,
Or talk proudly about your children
And your children's children.
How I envy your joy.

You don't have to ask.
You can come knocking on my door
anytime.